There was somethings in me for the past few days.
FEAR
I don't know. Part of me says that my visions about my team growth, Dreams, TL, CGL, WT Drummer might just be false hope, yet part of me is eager to keep praying and anticipate when God wants me to make the next move again.
It just feels so contradicting.
It just felt like whatever the visions, dreams that God has dropped to me, was just an another wishful thinking of mine. it felt like i was thinking too much. All those things would never happen. you are thinking too much, says the Devil.
Thus, I'm even more challenged to pray more.
pray that my team will grow in numbers, and not only just numbers, but qualities on the inside, the substances.
My visions will come to pass. My life to change.
Zechariah 3:6-7
6 The angel of the LORD gave this charge to Joshua: 7 "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'If you will walk in my ways and keep my requirements, then you will govern my house and have charge of my courts, and I will give you a place among these standing here.
This verse came back to me again.
i was not very Holy, was not spiritual enough.
I know i was a sinner and i wondered why was this shown to me.
3 Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. 4 The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes."
Then he said to Joshua, "See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put rich garments on you."
God loved me. He was ready to take off my sin.
I have no fear of my visions now.
No more fear of what people might think, no more fear of not being able to, no more fear of people getting unhappy for i am here to serve God and not Man.
If He drops me visions, dreams, it means He believe that i can make it happen. If He believe that i can, then I can do it.
